The fall-like weather came @ a nice junction in my life. On the third week of my fast now and still in the book of Zachariah. Studying minor prophets can be rough, but it can be fulfilling @ the same time.

I do realize pics are needed on my blog. I have some sitting in that wonderful camera of mine. They are probably spinning circles on my memory card as I type. They'll make it here eventually. Charleston was nice this weekend. A bit buggy Saturday, but I had some glassy surf for about 3 hours that made all the noise drift off into the low tide. I also got some time in the surf with my father, which is always nice. This is how I grew up-in Charleston, in the water, with my father. It will be a memory that sits with me forever. It also helped that my wife sat on the beach watching and telling stories of our lives to my mother. I am amazed @ my blessings.

God told me to give up music this weekend. From Luke 14:

Large crowds were traveling with Jesus, and turning to them he said: "If anyone comes to me and does not hate his father and mother, his wife and children, his brothers and sisters—yes, even his own life—he cannot be my disciple. And anyone who does not carry his cross and follow me cannot be my disciple.

"Suppose one of you wants to build a tower. Will he not first sit down and estimate the cost to see if he has enough money to complete it? For if he lays the foundation and is not able to finish it, everyone who sees it will ridicule him, saying, 'This fellow began to build and was not able to finish.'

"Or suppose a king is about to go to war against another king. Will he not first sit down and consider whether he is able with ten thousand men to oppose the one coming against him with twenty thousand? If he is not able, he will send a delegation while the other is still a long way off and will ask for terms of peace. In the same way, any of you who does not give up everything he has cannot be my disciple."

There is a good bit of message there. It is hard for me to take in. I have always read that and thought, "ok, sure, I can do that." Brush it off. Push it aside. Think about it later. Sure. It is easy to read. It is easy to tell people and write it in a blog. But when I think about my family, my music, my possessions, all that I have-I don't want to do that. But when I think about His blessing, His will, His door-I move toward his hand and away from mine.

Pics to come soon.



Anonymous said...

This is all I know-God is rock and roll. He is sex. He is love passion hard work and pain. He is the salt of the earth. Salt doesn't make something different, it makes it better. We are created to make this earth better. Sharing your talents is scriptural. Hiding them is not. This has nothing to do with any personal connection between various parties. Fasting definitely fills your head with new thoughts. But fasting isn't reality in a way. I would be wary of deciding on anything in that space. It isn't making a decision with your whole life. Why do you feel so tortured by it? Why do you feel like you aren't doing enough? Just receive His love-you'll never be good enough anyway. That's the point!

BFrancese said...

yeah i heard it all. and i am surely not in a torture mode. just a listening one. too much salt can be a really bad thing, and that is what i heard. i had never heard it before. pouring too much salt in the wound.

time to just let it heal.

and the last part...about not being good enough. yep. never good, just fallen. and i've been picked up again.

Anonymous said...

well, I won't say anything else. I really don't know what you are talking about-I haven't really been privy to your private life. It sounds like you have issues with someone/thing. I never meant to be condescending, though I know I do it without trying. Beyond anything, we care about you and your family. We like you beyond the obvious connections and would like to be a bigger part of your lives, if you want that. Everyone has to follow their heart. No matter what. Sorry for appearing wise to all the details.

Plastic Twig said...

B you are da man! Keep riding bud, that like running allows you to see the world and reflect! Keep it up and soon we'll ride together. Love ya bro! Tell Jess hey!